Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Multitude of Sins

Do you know what a panic attack feels like?
For me, it feels like the world is too big and doesn't have enough space at the same time. It feels like you just want to thrash about but there's too much room to do it, so you can only cry and try to catch your breath from everything that is not smothering you.

Do you know what happens when you have a secret?
You insulate yourself. No one can know. And the sad thing is the things we want to hide are usually pretty obvious to the people who love us the most. So now we're lying. And we're alone. And we've separated ourselves from everything we need- accountability, support, honesty, love. And it's all for no reason.

Above all, keep loving one another earnestly, since love covers a multitude of sins.
1 Peter 4:8

Here's the interesting empowerment we get as Christians, which I'd never considered until I needed people to love me earnestly. Christ being in us means that, as members of this family, this royal priesthood, we have the distinct honor and task of living out a life that reflects that embodiment. 

If Christ is in me, you should be able to see Him. Savvy?

That being said, the result of modeling your life after His,
of committing to love each other even when we thoroughly suck,
when we keep loving one another earnestly,
that changes people.
I can't even stay in my seat. That's out of control.

Do you understand what a big deal that is to give to someone?
Respite from that burden of living alone with their secrets?
Even just the slightest break from this growing anxiety?

Loving others well-
It's not natural.
It draws attention because it's not normal.
It's weird to receive and weirder to do.
It's humbling.
It will require everything in you, but you'll be able to run and not get tired, walk and not become weary...


love, Love, LOVE

1 comment:

NiTasha said...

oh girl. OH GIRL. i feel like we keep having the same conversations...even if it's just dialogue in our heads and then i read your blog and it completes the rest of my thought. not going to lie, i like this a whole lot. thanks for writing this...for the challenge... no. invitation to love and be loved.

oh and for saying 'savvy?'
yes. that is just grand.